Superstar09's Journals

what a month....

i cant really say that my day has been ok cuz it just started , and i cant really say that my week has gone good because it has just started as well... my month has been pretty good i guess... kinda crazy but thats what life is right??? shit happens!!!!!! and life will always go on... i dont know if i have said this once before but, why is it that nothing good can ever last? is it becuz nothing bad ever lasts or was it just not n=meant to be? who knows? becuz i sure don't...

scars

"Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

*** this is how i feel... i ranaway last night and got turned in like 6 hours later.. it sucked big ones!***

why the hell...

why the hell does shit always have to happen to me? i thought i had everything i needed but i lost it, i thought i had it... guess i let it go....

i dunno... just read it!!!

well... my day has been peachy so far? i guess... its only like 1st preiod and yeah.. the next two days are gunna suck some real big ones, cuz i have in skool suspension for being on buzznet, but hey, its all gravy, but i dont wanna go cuz then i won't get to see my boi all day.... :-( uugh... now they know why alot of us dont even go to skool... lol...

today...

MY DAY HAS BEEN PEACHY, I GUESS... BESIDES THE POINT THAT I AM AT SKOOL. ITS A GRAVY THO... GOTTA LOVE IT, HUH?

just another day...

"Todays just an ordinary day." I wish that wuz true. Right now the home life sucks... I don't live w/ my real family and i guess thats why its so hard. I'm so tired of living the bullshit life... Sometimes i just want to leave and not come back until i know that its okay, and that they can't do anything to me. If only life was that easy... Just run from your problems. I guess thats what my problem is now tho.. When somethng goes wrong i always run, stay gone for awhile and then come back and then its right back to the bullshit life once again... But yeah, i guess lifes a bitch tho right???????? Karma came back to get me! i don't even know what i did so damn wrong... i guess i was brought in to this world... But thats ok cuz nothing is coming in between Cami Mother Fucking Evans... lol...

uugh....

have you ever missed someone so much u just wanted to leave where u were to get to them? i am feeling that exact same way right now.... i hate it actaully... but i guess there is not to much one person can do, huh?